So I guess this is the place where I spew out my innermost thoughts, fears, and feelings??? Why not a lot of people do it, so why not me? Here we go!!!
Where to start....maybe with who I am. I am a mother of four beautiful girls, two of which are my step-daughters. I love those girls as intensely as I love my birth children. My girls are 15, 10, 7, and 4. I have a wonderful, loving, hardworking man in my life that I call, hubby! I am a full time mother and wife, ER tech, and college nursing student. Yes, I have my plate full and, yes, I am completely stressed beyond the max. But I am working towards making a better life for my family. I won't be in school forever so that is a comforting thought! :)
What made me think to start a blog? Well I guess I needed an outlet. An outlet to all the insanity and chaos in my life. Don't get me wrong, I am blessed with amazing children and a supportive and loving husband but there are some days I just can't get out what I need. So for the lucky ones who read this, you get the privilege of my deepest thoughts! (ok maybe not deepest, but you get the point)
What kind of thoughts? Main one to start with is my health. I have always considered myself healthy but overweight. That all changed when I turned 30....eek! I went to the Dr for other reasons only to be told "You're Type II diabetic and have high cholesterol" Why thank you doc...I think you're full of it!! Why is it when the dr tells me something I don't want to hear I blame her?? My guess, it's because I don't want to face the fact that I did this to myself. IT SUCKS! I consider this my HUGE wake up call that I am not the invisible person that I thought I was.
So what now??? It is time for a change! I want to be here for my children when they grow up and have babies of their own. To offer them advance, to help guide them through this crazy life, to teach them how the world works, to be their Mom! I need to do this for me and my life, but my children are definitely my driving force.
I need to hold myself accountable for my actions and live up to the standards I once did. I want to be a healthier, leaner me. Need to work on some moderation, exercise, self control, and to stop smoking! I want to start this journey soon....it is time to set some goals, so I will start small. Tomorrow, I will drink water instead of Pepsi, and eat healthier options instead of junk food!! I guess I have started a small step towards this already, when I went grocery shopping I looked at labels and chose the 'healthy' foods. So here's to a happy, healthier tomorrow!!
